Confused!?!?!?

Okay so like the phone company double charges me two phone bills. I just recently moved to all the bills are at a caotic stand point. Here is the messed up situtation. I moved in with my brother's ex girlfriend. They had been living in the apartment, they parted ways, she moved out, he stayed. Well my darling, wonderful, sweet, loving, brother has been buring all his bridges lately. He got involed with this movie guy or something and quit all his jobs to follow him and stopped paying all his bills because he swears this wonder guy is paying him..inactuality he's screwing him over and owes him tons of money. So my brother is like in the dog house big time and people have been trying to help him out, but he keeps screwing up. So anyway..back to my point if i was making one...my brother can't afford the apartment anymore and calls his ex begging for her to come back so that he could go out of arizona by my parents and save some money and she could stay at the apartment and keep his stuff there. Mandy couldn't afford it on her own and I was looking for a roomate..so we decided to give it a go. So now the world if confused because I live there now...people can't understand the concept that my brother and i have the same last name and stuff. Plus get this...i just bought a honda civic. Mandy just bought a honda civic and my brother just started selling cars for honda..the same place both mandy and I bought our cars. plus my lease in is in my father's name because I co-signed and both my father and brother's name is the same. Confused yet? So then the other thing bothering me is that I just had off a week at work. We get paid personal leave for vacation. It's not the same as regular pay and I don't get the shift differental, but being paid to leave is great. So I'm suppose to get paid on friday and my checking account is over drawn $5 bucks and I call the bank to see how much I have now...and for some reason I only got paid $35 dollars last week. So like um..soemthing is MAJORALLY!!!!!! screwed up..and I'm kinda stressing. I live in a soap opera by the way...[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<not [...] couldn't>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]Okay so like the phone company double charges me two phone bills. <growl> I just recently moved to all the bills are at a caotic stand point. Here is the messed up situtation. I moved in with my brother's ex girlfriend. They had been living in the apartment, they parted ways, she moved out, he stayed. Well my darling, wonderful, sweet, loving, <insert sarcasim here> brother has been buring all his bridges lately. He got involed with this movie guy or something and quit all his jobs to follow him and stopped paying all his bills because he swears this wonder guy is paying him..inactuality he's screwing him over and owes him tons of money. So my brother is like in the dog house big time and people have been trying to help him out, but he keeps screwing up. So anyway..back to my point if i was making one...my brother can't afford the apartment anymore and calls his ex <mandy> begging for her to come back so that he could go out of arizona by my parents and save some money and she could stay at the apartment and keep his stuff there. Mandy couldn't afford it on her own and I was looking for a roomate..so we decided to give it a go. So now the world if confused because I live there now...people can't understand the concept that my brother and i have the same last name and stuff. Plus get this...i just bought a honda civic. Mandy just bought a honda civic and my brother just started selling cars for honda..the same place both mandy and I bought our cars. plus my lease in is in my father's name because I co-signed <having no credit of course> and both my father and brother's name is the same. Confused yet? So then the other thing bothering me is that I just had off a week at work. We get paid personal leave for vacation. It's not the same as regular pay and I don't get the shift differental, but being paid to leave is great. So I'm suppose to get paid on friday and my checking account is over drawn $5 bucks and I call the bank to see how much I have now...and for some reason I only got paid $35 dollars last week. So like um..soemthing is MAJORALLY!!!!!! screwed up..and I'm kinda stressing. I live in a soap opera by the way...<not like you couldn't tell> Anyway...I got to see Vince today <my fireman, drop dead gorgeous, love of my life>. It's been about 5 days since we've seen each other because of my work schedule. We went out for breakfast this morning. He's really into "starting the day off right with breakfast" and all I wanted to do was sleep..but I got to see him :) <drool> Well it's taken 5 hours to write this because work has been hell and i still have a boat load of things to do. so..i'm signing off. :(

I owe, I owe, it's off to work I go!

Well I'm at work :( I work at a hospital on the darkside <3rd shift> It's kinda slow and my lack of motivation kinda disgusts me. I'm a pharmacy tech and a poison control specialist. Basically I'm a drug dealer that saves lives...pretty ironic? I suppose you should all know what's in my head lately. I just recently started dating the man of my dreams...problem is his mom is going to die anyday now. Needless to say it's not a very happy start the the relationship, however something tells me that it was meant to be this way. Every have the feeling that when something happens good or bads that sometimes it was willed to be? Does that make sense. Like things are sometimes just too wierd to understand, but you know deep inside no matter how many times you fail to explain it, it exists and grows in your heart. In the past I've been a little too open with people that were careless with my heart and feelings. It's made me an easy target to those that didn't deserve to laugh at my dreams. Though I've learned and grown, and it makes me the strong person I am today. Sometimes I feel cheated and jaded, but then I realize how lucky I am to have what I do and have expierenced what I have. Anyway...I've got go do some work now. I suppose that is a good places to start and a good place to leave off.