I owe, I owe, it's off to work I go!

Well I'm at work :( I work at a hospital on the darkside <3rd shift> It's kinda slow and my lack of motivation kinda disgusts me. I'm a pharmacy tech and a poison control specialist. Basically I'm a drug dealer that saves lives...pretty ironic? I suppose you should all know what's in my head lately. I just recently started dating the man of my dreams...problem is his mom is going to die anyday now. Needless to say it's not a very happy start the the relationship, however something tells me that it was meant to be this way. Every have the feeling that when something happens good or bads that sometimes it was willed to be? Does that make sense. Like things are sometimes just too wierd to understand, but you know deep inside no matter how many times you fail to explain it, it exists and grows in your heart. In the past I've been a little too open with people that were careless with my heart and feelings. It's made me an easy target to those that didn't deserve to laugh at my dreams. Though I've learned and grown, and it makes me the strong person I am today. Sometimes I feel cheated and jaded, but then I realize how lucky I am to have what I do and have expierenced what I have. Anyway...I've got go do some work now. I suppose that is a good places to start and a good place to leave off.