i see the light!

well 20 min and i'm out of this dungeon. I'll probablly be back on friday, since i have to come in during the day. I haven't working the am shift since feburary. btw-if you're looking for an intresting and most oddly amuzing journal to read go to: I hate richard the mailman's journal.people like him call the poison center every night! DOH!Anyway..good night! Time to mingle with the monsters under the bed. MUUAHHHAHHHAHHAHAHA.

yawn

i feel like i have bricks chained down to the abyss of my fricken eye lids...I'M TRIED DAMN IT! AUGHHH.......I've also had too much soda which isn't doing squat! I talk to my friend Jeremy tonight. I logged on and he was there. He just got back from Alaska. He called me from his cell phone in Canada and told me he couldn't make my b-day :P But i understand. Alaska and Canada are a lot more exciting than a stupid party. I think I'm seriously going to look for a new job. I'm just so burned out. I know that a lot of people here want to leave. It's a good job, just that no one listens when problems need to be fixed. We can't afford that here..people die..it's a hosptial. We just spent all this money for a new computer system and isn't doing what it's marketed for. We have 3 different computer systems and none of them talk to each other. This new one is seriously going to cause someone to die. The administration was suppose to decide 5 times now to dump this pile of shit program, and still we are messing around with it. The printer went down for 4 hours today and it took us 4 hours to get I.S to come do something about it. Anyway, no one has the balls to say or do anything about this damn system. The main problem here is that the big guys don't take stock in what we have to say. If there is a problem they come in observe for 10 min, come up with some rediculous solution and make things worse. The other problem is that they ask other people for their opinion about problems when they don't pertain to the people they are asking. They should be talking to the people that deal with it and know what the hell is going on. Don't ask outsiders...it's like asking a two year old what the meaning of life is?!?! Okay i feel better. This week has just been hell. work is no longer fun here..time to move on. hopefully make more money too. I talked to Jeremy about working were he does. He's making PHAT cash. It would solve a few problems if I could get a 9-5 job with weekends off. wishful thinging eh! :P My tricepts are sore from working out today. I've lost 15 pounds since I dumped dickhead but i wanna lose about 10 more. plus i started gaining some back. trying though...Vince wants lose wieght too. I think he's beautiful though. Well i'm going to go play for awhile...i wish i could take a nap Zzzz...

WONDERFUL WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6 more hours of work. YAY! I'm picking up extra hours on friday morning though. This way I'll compensate for my blunder of not being paid for a week. I called the bank today. They are going to let me pay my car payment in two weeks. I went grocery shopping today..on the little money I have. I think I have about $6 left. I can't believe I made that mistake. I scrap it enough as it is, but now i'm out $900 big ones. Like like my rent, car, insurance, phone, electric, and spending all in one. Lesson learned the hard way I guess. I tried to sleep at home today. My roomate turned off the air conditioner again! I walked in and nearly fainted it was so hot. I'ts like 91 and humid plus i live on the 5th floor. I put the air on and turned on the fans, but then the cat wanted to play and I was like..ok..it's almost 11am...I need sleep, my head is pounding. I got up threw some clothes on and went to Vince's. He suprised me by coming home at 6pm. He got his hair cut. I couldn't see it in the dark, but I snuggled up next to him and went to brush his hair back and could feel it was all shaved in the back. I'm spending the day with him tomorrow. He's got off. Thursday a bunch of us are going to Zoo al a carte. He's getting his friemen buddies together and I'm bringing Angela and Mandy. I'm looking forward to it. Not too much else is going on. I'm going to head off to work. talk to you in a week. maybe friday but I doubt it. nighterz!

icky!

I feel icky. My throat hurts and my tummy is doing summersaults. I just wanna crawl into bed...but i've got 2 and half more hours to go. I've got tons of shit to do at home too. i need to do laundry, grocery shopping, call the bank and the phone company. blah. I want this night to end. My pharmasist is being a jerk and it makes it worse.

Happy Tuesday!

It's tuesday morning...and the only thing keeping me going is knowing tonight is my last night of work I'm sitting here scarfing down a sandwhih from the coffee shop because I didn't have time to eat today. I was too busy sleeping. I slept at Vince's again today. He's got such a great sleeping house. He puts cardboard in the windows so no light gets in. Plus he's got central air conditioning, so sleeping during the day is prime at his place. when ever I try to sleep at my wherehouse loft I contend with my roomate, her two cats, the thin walls, being down town in the city, and every telemarketer that ever existing calling every 2 min. I'd unplug the phone but I can't with Vince's mom doing bad. I gave him that personal add that I cut out in the paper. I just left it on the kitchen counter. He called me at work laughing. He thinks I should respond to the add. I told him we should set it up to meet him in a bar to find out who he is. Like tell him I look like so and so and i'll be wearing this and this and then go completely different just to see. he kinda likes watching other people get turned on by me. It's like a power he has knowing I'm going home with him...or something. I duno..it's just fun to pretend and mess with people sometimes. I don't mean that in the cruel way either. We've planned to finish the stone around Vince's house on wednesday. It's looking so nice already. Just a little bit more around the hot tub and it will be done. I'd like to help him on the rest of his house, but that will have to wait until after his mom passes. There just isn't enough time. Well, I'm going to check my e-mail now. I'll come back later...maybe.

home

well it's time for bed. i'm outie. i get to fight traffic now. BLAH. going home to the monsters under the bed. maybe one will bite

lol

so my birhtday party was a theme kinda thing. it was suppose to be gangster/flapper/ whatever. and i go and get this killer outfit. my b/f has a foot fetish and i bought these break your neck 6 inch red opened toed porno looking shoes that were just too yummy to pass up. so i get the picture developed today and bring them into work and people are freaking about the shoes...and i said "yeah, they're like porno shoes" and she said "yea come fuck me sandals" I laughed so hard. coming from miss little goody/goody. i've heard of fmb's and own a few pairs...but i'm really liking the cfm's. one other thing..going back to the foot fetish thing. so my co-worker/good friend is reading this local milwaukee new paper and for shits and giggles is skiming the personals and she happens to come across and add that reads: Foot FetishesVery attractive, clean-cut SWM, 33, 6'2, 174lbs, with fetishes for legs, feet, stocking, pantyhose, heels. Seeking open-minded sexy SF, 18-50, race open. For fun times. Milwaukee area.this fits the description of my b/f perfectly. I'm hoping it's a coincidence! I cut it out and am going to show him. I'll leave it on his bed this a note like "wanna explain something" ;) We like to joke around like that. I should respond to the add and tell the guy to get leg world.

Not the brightest crayon in the box

I'm dumb! Plain and stupid. I thought I had paid personal time left at work because they approved a week vacation And so my pay check was only $35 this week..and I'm thinking something isn't right...well I come to find out that I didn't have any time left so I wasn't paid my week off. had I known that I would have never taken vacation. DUMB DUMB DUMB! SO i have $35 dollar to live off of for two weeks. This is NOT a good thing :_( Hopefully the bank will let me have an extention on my car payment. If not I'll have to flee the country. I got to see Vince again today I guess there's always something to look forward to that makes you smile. he's definately it. I got my birhday pictures developed today. There's one of us extremely frame worthy. It's one of those...it's so cute it would make you barf pictures :D I'm at work it sucks. Not as bad as last night. I seriously thought about blowing my head off last night. At the end of this month my parents are flying in and are going to meet Vince for the first time. We're all going to Michigan to my aunt and uncle's summer home. It's so beautiful there. I keep day dreaming about water skiing and relaxing by the water. I think Vince needs a little r&r too. Things have been so bad with his mom dying. He needs a little escape. It's hard to be working and have so much going on in your life outside of work. I literally work and sleep on my on week. It's 7 ten and a half hour nights in a row. There just ins't time for anything else when I'm working. I need to get a second job too, but I won't do it becuase he needs me and I want to be there for him. Maybe after his mom passes away, which will be very soon. Anyway...I've got things to do that i'm procrastinating and my pharmasist keeps giving me dirty looks. Nighterz!